I had promised to do better with writing. I have been writing.  It hasn’t been here. It has been on FB and Insta. So, forgive me for not keeping to my promise.

This year marked 6 years of being cancer free. I celebrated differently. I celebrated because my mind became whole. My soul became restored to factory default. By now, I would have coiled into my shell or started a spiral of clinical depression and anxiety.

Why was I spiraling at the same time every year?

Wasting half of the year, choosing not to live?

If I had to explain, I would write a thesis. For so long, I did not understand the power of my mind. I did not master myself. What did I discover?

1. My body has the tendency to harbor trauma very easily.
2. When I face setbacks, which kind of happen quite often, I don’t take time to pause, understand, refuel, recharge, and keep moving.
3. I made excuses for being me. There was a subliminal part of me that shrunk or wanted some form of validation from people who are dear.
4. I did not understand the difference between joy and happiness fully.
5. I felt guilty when I wanted to do me and be me
6. With purpose comes a bit of internal conflict you must address.
7. I easily felt guilty about the sacrifices I had to make.

These 7 points caused me to shrink. Finally, I began to address each of the points above. For number 1, if you are interested in my history with trauma, check my blog post using certain keywords and read up. I no longer hold it in; I cry, I talk to my therapist, I talk to the Holy Spirit, I feel much better. The thing about trauma, whether mild, blunt, or heavy is that it bruises the body at the molecular level. There is a scientific study that changes happen at the DNA level.

Who needs that? Healthy mind, healthy body; healthy mind, healthy spirit.

“Behold I wish above that you prosper and be in good health even as your soul prospers” – 3 John 1